September 12, 2022

K.

Thank you for accepting this letter. It's been three months and only now, after seeing you again, am I beginning to deeply process our breakup and everything you meant to me. I often have trouble uncovering and understanding my own feelings and this makes sharing them even more challenging, something I wish I'd worked more on during our time together.

You informed me that you deserved more than the abrupt breakup I gave you and you are right. If I could change things to take back some of the hurt I caused you I would without question. You deserve 

After we spoke, I realized the one thing I regret most is not showing you the appreciation you deserve for how much you cared for me. In the end, the only thing that matters is the care we show for each other and I think you learned this earlier than most. I don't need to tell you the days we spent together were some of the happiest of my entire life. They are irreplaceable.

You helped me grow and understand myself in ways nobody else has and I will carry the lessons you taught me for the rest of my life. I want you to know now, even if it's much too late, that I did and do appreciate you and everything you did for me.  

I hope we are able to meet again sometime in the future, even if it's only to provide me a chance to marvel at the incredible work you will have accomplished and the lives you will have changed. I hope you never lose your wonder and sense of joy which filled out time together with such beauty. And I hope the opportunities you explore these next months and years will be ones that expand your mind and fill you with the knowledge and confidence to accomplish the incredible achievements you are already on your way toward.

I will always be fighting to understand and overcome my personal failings and I'm sorry your heart was caught in the crossfire this time. If there ever comes a time when you need something from me, I will be there.

We picked out this picture together. There's a feminine beauty in it that fits you and your life's passion more than it will ever fit me and mine. 

Kalvin