November 10, 2021

K. you're asking these questions to a mirror. I have all the same hesitations and questions and the convoluted desire to grab ahold of you and hold myself under control at the same time. 

I want to look into your eyes and not feel the need to shy away or say something to break the moment. 

And what I want most right is to see you. And continue to share things - experiences, memories, goals, terrible jokes, even bad days and low moments. This is what I think builds vulnerability and trust and how we can move ahead. We didn't run off a cliff too quickly, we ran up a mountain and now we're gasping.

Sometimes a plan is what you need and sometimes it's better to go forward into the unknown and rely on well tested principles to make the right decisions when they arise. I think here honesty is more important than rules, we can't exactly follow the rules we set for ourselves but I'll share anything you want to know.