June 8, 2018

I'm going to start this letter by immediately apologizing. I'm so sorry B. I never meant to completely drop out if your life, and drop you from mine. When I told you I'd found someone, I didn't know what to do after. I felt like I'd make you uncomfortable if I continued to contact you, even in a general friendly way. I didn't know if you wanted to separate entirely because it would be easier or whether you would be alright with still staying friends. I still don't and I've never found the right the chance to ask. 

I'm sorry if this makes you uncomfortable, but I liked you a lot and was looking forward to visiting. We had and still have so much in common. We appreciate the same art and poetry, we enjoy talking about ideas of culture and philosophy, and so much more. But you live there and I live here. I'm more carefree than you and won't likely settle down for a long while. You've got an impressive and significant career ahead of you and I can't do my life long distance. I've done a 3 year long distance relationship before and can't spend all of my life that way. Although we never officially dated I did care for you and wished the circumstances would have been different. I dont want to make you feel like you were just a fling and what we had was something I could just toss off when I got bored. It wasn't like that and isn't, I just simply had to end things.

Don't feel like you need to respond to this. I hope you can gain some insight into the whole situation and where I'm currently at. If you still want to stay in touch I'd gladly keep you in my life, things will just be different going forward. 

-Kalvin